The tunes I’ve been jamming to January – May. It’s not comprehensive, but it’s a good peek into my life.
“Breaking Down” — Florence and the Machine
Lots of Florence this semester, because of the show and because of L. “Breaking Down” was the curtain call song for Friends Don’t Let Friends, the show I did in December. So it’s got special meaning. I tear up a little every time I hear it.
“Nine People’s Favorite Thing” — [title of show]
Yes, I’m a nerd. But I listened to this song after some of the hardest moments… and it actually works to make me feel better.
“Paper Bag” — Fiona Apple
This song has been around forever, but it just came back to me after seeing Bridesmaids. That scene where she’s making cupcakes… I mean.
“Helplessness Blues” — Fleet Foxes
The first song in the show I did this summer. It’s very apropos to summer angst.
“Laura” — Girls
My friend sings this probably 100 times better than this band. I mean it’s this band’s song, and I still like it, but boy… you should hear J sing it.
“Call Your Girlfriend” — Robyn
Um… Have you seen this music video?
“King of Anything” — Sara Bareilles
This is the classic breakup album. I didn’t have a breakup, but who cares. I listened to this song on repeat.
“The Fear” — Lily Allen
It’s just amazing. It was also in pre-show of FDLF.
“I wanna be rich, and I want lots of money / I don’t care about clever, I don’t care about funny / I want loads of clothes and fuckloads of diamonds / I heard people die when they’re trying to find them”
“Hand in my Pocket” — Alanis Morrissette
This was my song with L. The second day, after we had a complete diagnosis and a proposed treatment plan (which we subsequently didn’t follow through with, when she decided to be admitted to Sloan), she started singing this song. It still makes me think of her.
“Wonderwall” — Oasis
We used to sing along to this song freshman year. It wasn’t until this year that I actually learned it. Make me nostalgic for college.
“Far Far” — Yael Naim
I love songs that are very lyrical and catchy. This one is a little nonsensical (she’s not a native English speaker, I don’t think…) but it’s very lovely.
“17” — Youth Lagoon
This band is from my hometown. This is my favorite song from this album.
“Braille” — Regina Spektor
I love Regina, and I find this song to be so powerful. I want to sing it for an audition someday… it’s totally act-able. I know because, um, I have definitely tried.
“Someone Like You” — Adele
I mean, this is everyone’s song of the year. But again, it reminds me of L. We listened to it together on the subway the day she was diagnosed. Then, the day I went with her and she was admitted to Sloan, she went in to get an x-ray procedure and I had to sit outside. It was the first time we had been separated the entire day. This song played on the radio in the basement of Sloan. I started crying. I started singing along, imperceptibly. The nurses sang too. And I knew inside the room, L was singing with us.